Thursday, October 29, 2009

In order to understand my point of views is to know me

I've been following a number of blogs for a while and I read all kinds of posts along with their comments, mostly good, some mind provoking, some critical. With the critical ones, I understand the tendency for people to want to tell the truth, provide constructive criticism, be a devil's advocate, provoke a debate but the odd instances I feel the reader should take the time to learn more about their author, to understand where they are coming from and what their personality is like to know why they wrote what they did before they attack them. We all go through experiences differently and even if we did go through the exact same experience I bet you we would each tell a different story.

For that reason, this post is about me. Selfish as that is, I want you to get to know me and understand the personality behind the posts (far between as they are) and why I chose to write them. Yes I realize at this point I probably lost a lot of readers but those that continue to read the rest I thank you.

I am first and foremost Asian. What does that have to do with anything? Nothing really except that I am proud of my background (though I wished I knew more about my family history and could speak the language - it also makes me short), have the chubbiest face known to mankind and am frugal. We like to eat out lots and because of that, I watch my spending in other areas and rarely go out any other times.

I am fiercely competitive for as long as I recall. We would have math tests in elementary school and I recall thinking to myself I had to beat the boys in my class and that there was no coming in second place. I recall participating in track and field and thinking the blue ribbons didn't even compare to the red ribbons. I am also most competitive when it comes to anything where I have to face off against guys as I hate the mentality that guys are better than girls - that just irks me. I hate losing and I hate giving up. This is not to say if I lost I wouldn't congratulate the winner, it just meant I had to try that much harder the next time. I will try anything and keep at it until I become good at it (unless I get absolutely bored of it).

I am also extremely stubborn. This often gets me into a lot of debates, some which I know from the moment I start I know I will lose but I cannot back down. I am most stubborn when I want those around me to enjoy things, but because they know I love it as well they will not take it. At times I am so stubborn I act like a two year old. Thanks mom and dad for giving me this trait.

I am also a positive person, I look on the bright side of things even when things are down. When things are down, I look for the good as there is ALWAYS something good in everything, you might just have to search harder for it. I like to remain upbeat and positive as the times that I am down, I didn't care for it and I truly am the only person that can control my destiny. Being down puts me in a victim mentality when I know for a fact that I can change my situation and that the world really does not revolve around me.

I am also a hard worker - boredom drives me to play silly games where my competitiveness doesn't allow me to be second best. This drives me crazy. I love to work and if I won a million dollars, I would probably still work, maybe just not as hard and travel more (feel free to give me a million dollars so I can prove this point). I like working as a team, regardless of hierarchy as you are only as rich as the company you work for or own is and it is rare to become rich on your own. I don't understand people who walk around with a chip on their shoulder or act better than you - what does this prove? Bottom line is, the busier I am, the more productive I feel, the happier I am.

I also love to eat - I will eat almost anything that is not found in the fruits and vegetable group. Give me a medium rare steak any day of the week and I will be a happy camper. What more is there to say?

This is me in a nut shell. I could go on but I'm afraid I probably lost all my readers or put everyone to sleep. However if anyone wants me to go on just say the word.